I Don’t Know What To Do
Hello everybody,
I’ve got to say that I’m new here, since this is my first time on this web page. Ehh first I want to apologize if I have grammar mistakes, but I’m from a Spanish spoken country so English is my second language.
The reason I wanted to write this is because I really need some advice. I’ve always liked to watch The L Word, because I think it is a great show, but now than ever I’ve kind of feel more connected to it, in a way I’ve never felt before. I’ve always been into boys, but since the beginning of this year I’ve been involved with a friend, who is my girlfriend, well kind of, because it’s very complicated.
I think that I’ve always felt attracted to boys, but 2 years ago or something I started getting a bit interested in girls too, and this girl I mentioned before is my first, but we’ve done everything there is to do. I can say from right now that she isn’t gay or anything, she’s totally into boys, but with me she feels so connected that she gave us a try. We’re now so in love that it is sick sometimes. Since we live in a country that has not accepted so well the gay community it is a little hard for us to show our love. And that’s our major problem right now, because lately everyone has find out, and especially her mother, which makes things very difficult because she is IN TOTAL DISAGREEMENT with gays, so she won’t let my friend see my anymore, and I really DON’T KNOW what to do.
I’m completely in love with her but now my relationship with her is almost hiding to talk or fighting all the time and it’s really starting to hurt. I’m almost 100% sure that I’m bisexual, but I don’t know how to come out or to tell at least my folks.
Can anyone please advice me on how to do it and what do to, if to keep seeing this girl I love or to move on and be with someone else?
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sweetie, the only advice that i can give is to follow what your heart tells you, as corny as that sounds! solo tu corazon conozco decirte en tu tiempo de disorden. i know it’s probably not the right dialect or whatever, but my heart reaches out to you, and i hope that my words reach across languages to you, because you need the support of at least one and i choose to be that one. please, think about your girl, your life, and the times that you’ve had with her. think about the love that you share, and know that people do not have the right to tell you who to know, who to trust, and above all, who to love and care for. people have tried to tell me what to think since i was little, and i haven’t let them succeed in controlling my life. follow in the footsteps of so many of our sisters and, even if it is in secret, show your love for her, and let her know that you don’t care about what those who know say and that behind closed doors you will still love her. let her choose what she wants - if she wants to endure with you, may you both be happy. if she can’t stand the ridicule and she distances herself, let her know that you can still be friends with each other.
above all, be yourself and let your heart steer you in the rocky waters that you’re going through, because no matter what, when your heart and soul guides you to a place, you can be sure that you will find some happiness and comfort there.
best wishes, a big fuzzy hug and a kiss on the cheek for good luck!!
strawberry ;3