My Coming Out Story… Or Not
Hi! I don’t really know how to do this… This would be the first time I write a post and participate in a blog. I’ll start by saying I’m a gold star lesbian and I’ve been in a relationship with my first and only girl for almost four years now. The truth is, I’M NOT OUT. No one knows I’m a lesbian except for my girl and me. I come from a totally homophobic family. Just to give you an example, I’ve got a little sister and she’s been taken out of the school she was attending because one of her teachers was gay. Yes, that was the reason why…
Anyway, the real purpose of my post is to set all my feelings free since I’m desperate and I guess this is normal. I’m coming out to YOU! I’m 23 and I feel I’ve come to a point at which I just need to say I’m a lesbian, at least to someone else apart from my partner! It really tears me apart not being able to share this with my closest friends and family. The thing is that in the society I live in, being gay or a lesbian in not at all accepted.
Although you don’t know me or my name or anything, it’s taken me more than 6 years to come to terms with myself and realise I’m not ill as everyone may say in my country. Though this “coming-out-to-you” thing may seem silly to you, it means a lot to me. I feel so breathless sometimes because I’m not able to set myself free from all this I’m going through. I know for certain that my family will deny my existence if they knew I’m a lez girl. At times I feel like shouting “I’M A LESBIAN”, but then, social constraints chase me and I’ve come to accept that, for the time being, I can only share this with my partner, whose social and family backgrounds are ever more “traditional”. All her family is really narrow-minded when it comes to this subject. I feel so tied and frustrated… But I’m in love and that’s what matters, right?
Well, I think I’ve more or less said everything I wanted to. Thanks a lot for reading this and taking the time to pay some attention to this desperate lesbian. I really appreciate this. I want to apologize for any mistakes you may have found (English is my second language). I would really love to read comments on my situation and see if there’s anyone going through something similar to this.
Thanks again.
Till next time.
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That was a lovely post!
I hope that it felt good saying that and I hope that you get lots of more chances to say that again! 
Hugs,
Em
I think that as long as you are happy with the one you love everything else will solve for itself. It´ll be hard but you dont have to worrie cause your not alone.. your lucky
Hi - Sending lots of supportive feelings your way.
Here is what my mommy told me. If you’re not guilty - don’t act guilty. If you act guilty - you are guilty.
In other words, hold you head up and live live live. You can’t worry about what others think.
This has served me well. I’m now unionized and civilized with my lovely spouse of 10 years and we have a perfect son.
Life is a bowl of cherries . . . now go eat!
Thanks a lot!! I really appreciate your comments. I feel a lot better.
Congrats on that post Justafolk. Hopefully we’ll hear much more from you. I know it can be tough not having the support of your family and friends but just be confident in yourself and concentrate on your relationship with your girlfriend and the rest will come.
Well, indeed that was a lovely post! I really hope things get better in the future. It just happens to me that when it comes to family matters, it simply isn’t at all easy to face the music once everything has come to light. It seems understandable to think positively and claim every piece will fall into place and relationships with our closest ones won’t suffer. Still I feel not everybody is ready to tell his/her parents, and that shouldn’t be a problem in the least. Time and maturation are variables that should be considered in this whole process as well.A kiss…
i wish you the best of luck with your girl, and hope you take One Lesbo’s advice to heart, kinda like i have… hold your head up high and live live live.
that’s the best advice someone could give you, and i know where you’re coming from, because my family is much the same way as yours, but i don’t have a partner to help me…
so good luck, best wishes, one big fuzzy hug, and a kiss on the cheek!!
strawberry ;3