Is It Just A Phase?
I’m not really sure if I’m going through a phase or not. I have been attracted to women for about 4 months now. I don’t know why but I think it started with Amy Lee of Evanescense. I could look at her for hours and listen to her sing for days. At first those ‘looks’ were out of pure admiration and respect but now I look at her and forget to breathe.
Sometimes I feel strange that I think this way but most of the time I know that there’s nothing wrong with it. I don’t want to come out because I don’t even know for sure if I am bi, so I don’t see the good it would do me. I guess I’m scared that people could find out.
I still love the deep male voice and that’s why I think I may be bi, but that’s like the only thing that’s keeping me from holding the lesbian title. *sigh* I just don’t know. I’m slightly confused, as you can probably tell and maybe this isn’t the right place to go but I had to talk about it somewhere that I wouldn’t be judged and no one knows me.
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You can never be sure but I think that what you’re going through is just a phase. Everybody goes through it, it’s nothing to freak out about. Now, I must ask, though, do you feel attracted to any other woman besides Amy Lee? Do you feel like you could be comfortable with another woman? If you can’t answer either surely, it probably is just a phase. I’m sorry if I was of no assistance but that’s the best I can do.
That’s how I started questioning my sexuality a few years ago, and it kind of grew after one girl crush, so this could go either way in my book. If it’s a phase, then you’ll be out of it soon enough, but if not, you’ll definitely know (I did, even though it’s still rather hard to admit to myself sometimes). For one thing, though, I’m not 100% positive about my sexual preference and I’ve been dealing with both sides for over three years now–don’t think about actually coming out unless you are sure you’re lesbian. That would be something you’d…well, regret a LOT (I have a feeling) if this is just a phase. Yea, coming out is a whole other ballgame–dealing with the fact that suddenly you have an attraction to another female is hard enough. Nice one with Amy Lee, though.
Man, I always kind of had a thing for Winona Ryder…and Emma Watson (she’s certainly more my age). And I completely understand when you say you “look at her and forge to breathe;” I have that with a girl at my school now, which has been hard….but I feel ya, girl. 
*S-B406
Amy Lee is a beauty! Nice choice. I like her very much too. But admiring a woman doesn’t automatically makes you a lesbian. Only YOU know how exactly you feel about her. Wait and see if you can feel the same for other women too. But don’t push yourself to it. Just be patient and let the time show you.
Best wishes.