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Hi there, I’m Reina. I’m 19 years old. During my childhood time i was like a tomboy. When i was a little girl i dress up like a boy and people will think i am actually a boy. Well all that changed when i went to high school. I dressed up like a girl. I flirt with guys and i like flirting and making them know i am interested in them. Some i actually like but mostly not. Just for fun only. And in middle school i practically have a crush on my friend who is a girl. But i didnt do anything cause i wasnt sure if i am a lesbian and i thought to myself maybe its just a phase. But like i said in high school everything changed. I dressed up like a girl. I wear skirts. Sleeveless outfits and such. Guys were interested. And i got interested in some of them. Had a couple of relationships. And most of them lasted for more than 1 year. But at times i still check out girls. I think they’re pretty or hot and stuff like that. And sometimes i think i have a crush towards them. So i befriend them. Give them treats and try to be close with them. But i never had a relationship with any girl before.
Now i am almost in the fourth year with my boyfriend. When we first started i love him so much. And we did a lot of things. But after a while i kinda got bored. I rather not kiss him. And i have been like that as i like some guys and after awhile once they like me i just dont have feelings for them anymore. And now i am interested in my friend who is a girl. She is like my best friend. And i had a dream about kissing her and holding her. So am i a lesbian ? Bisexual ? Because i sure dont feel straight. And most of my friends are guys. I get along with guys more than girls. Is that a sign ? And sometimes i get dreams that i am making out with a girl and i am not who i am. Sometimes i seem to be a guy but with my ownself but in a guy’s body. I am so confused. I am not afraid of being a lesbian or bisexual. I just dont know what my sexuality is right now. And its not fair to my boyfriend as i treat him differently. And i like shecking girls out. If they’re pretty, hot and etc. I have crushes on girls too. I just dont know what to do. So will u please help me ? Tell me what to do.. Or at least something. Because its eating me up on the inside. if u do post this i cant hear you ladies in the radio as i am in Malaysia. I would really appreciate all the help i can get. Hope to hear from you via email.
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