beverly, even though your society does not accept gay people, just remember that there’s nothing wrong with you.
you should read this article, actually, it might help you feel better:
http://www.scarleteen.com/article/gaydar/the_bees_and_the_bees_a_homosexuality_and_bisexuality_primer

hmm…you have to try to avoid her and forget about her. you can try talking to other girls like you online, like at forums or something. you won’t feel so alone and you don’t have to worry about people finding out you’re gay. i’m sure there are other girls like you who secretly like girls…you’ll find someone for you one day! or maybe you can move to a more gay friendly country….

here are some forums/communities i found for lesbians….
http://www.thepinksofa.com/guest/grrltalk.asp
http://community.livejournal.com/lesbian
http://lovegirls.co.uk/lesbian-forums/
http://www.afterellen.com/forum

you should can also search online to see if there’s some kinda help center or gay organization online or near where you live…

beverly,
even though your society does not accept gay people, just remember that there’s nothing wrong with you.
you should read this article, actually, it might help you feel better:
http://www.scarleteen.com/article/gaydar/the_bees_and_the_bees_a_homosexuality_and_bisexuality_primer

hmm…you have to try to avoid her and forget about her. you can try talking to other girls like you online, like at forums or something. you won’t feel so alone and you don’t have to worry about people finding out you’re gay. i’m sure there are other girls like you who secretly like girls…you’ll find someone for you one day! or maybe you can move to a more gay friendly country….

here are some forums/communities i found for lesbians….
http://www.thepinksofa.com/guest/grrltalk.asp
http://community.livejournal.com/lesbian
http://lovegirls.co.uk/lesbian-forums/
http://www.afterellen.com/forum

you should can also search online to see if there’s some kinda help center or gay organization online or near where you live…

hi beverly,
greetings from a fellow malaysian lesbian. Cheer up girl ur not alone and though it may be tough right now, i know you’ll get through it.

I just came out not too long ago in my late 20s and i found that talking and learning from like minded individuals help alot. One particular group you should look up is Purple Lab. Think the website is purplelab.net. Here u can meet many fellow lesbian women from all parts of malaysia. Also check out http://www.theklword.com. The group is run by my close friend and provides news and alert and parties for women. We r also on fb too.

I know it may seem tough living in a country which doesnt support gay people, but there is always hope. People are more educated and open nowadays and they are more accepting of us.

Take care beverly!

beverly,
ini perasaan biasa je.. sebab perempuan lagi sayang kat awak dari lelaki sebab itu ada rasa macam ini.. cuba awak cari BF yang baik and jaga awak, sure awak akan jadi straight.. but if putus cinta, jangan pula buat tak percaya kat cinta….

Big,
thank u for ur advice. I tak expect a malaysian to reply tho. I tak tahu i just cant love man. Plus i tak boleh forget this girl:(
kadz,
just glad sumone understands me.
Yuna,
how cant i forget her when seein her everyday without faillin

that’s why i ran away..i know it seems coward..but its for the best..in this prob we can’t just be selfish…kita nk kena jaga hati ramai orang.. and hati kita sendiri. i knew deep down its not goin’ to work out between me and her~
so its better this way. and then you will feel like hell lonely and heartache..ahaks. but don’t worry u’ll get over it.

Dear sisters
life is gettin harder. Im so lost.

Dear Beverly,

I am 33 and I just finally sure that I am a bisexual. I was in girls school too, had crush on girl. But when I started dating guys, I though liking girls was just as phase of my life. I finally got married, though to settle down, but I didn’t exactly in love with my husband, though he loves me very much. I finally realised that I am bisexual just a year ago, when I crazily in love with a woman. My advice, don’t settle with a man if you don’t love him. Be true to yourself. Trust me, it’s always easier to be gay all the way, than have to ‘try’ to be normal and settle down with a guy because everybody do that. Be true to yourself. Only then u can find happiness. Life is never easy, straight or gay, always full of challenges. Just be clear that sexuality is just a part of you, not representing who you are. You are bigger and greater than who u are attracted to. put your focus in what u want to achieve in life. Happiness will followed.

Yeah sis. I hav a long way to go in life. Thank u very much for the time and ur advice. Truely appriate it. Tc

boleh tak nak berkenalan dengan perempuan yg lesbian? ak laki. ak perlu sangat2 nk tanya somthin dkt sesape yg lesbian. perlu sangat2. ada sapa boleh jwb soalan ak, ak nk tanya. tak payahla malu ngan ak. ak takkan xckp somthing downgradin u. i juz want answers for my questions.tapi ak tak tanya lagi ni. sbb ak nak tau dulu, ada sapa tak yg sudi jwb?maksud ak yg lesbian.

Go young u can tanya i i ll try my best to jawab u

Im looking for to marry of convenience with a lesbian ,. add me if interested ,. seriousmocseeker@yahoo.com ,. im not planning to marry now as it will be after four or three years ,. but i thought getting acquainted from now is really good

Im looking for to marry of convenience with a lesbian ,. add me if interested ,. seriousmocseeker26@yahoo.com ,. im not planning to marry now as it will be after four or three years ,. but i thought getting acquainted from now is really good ,. srry mistyped my email

Beverly add me pls should we talk !!

seriousmocseeke26@yahoo.com

@mocseeker
She is only 16. Isn’t it a little bit early to talk about marriage now?

@Beverly
I’m a Malaysian too! Still figuring out whether I’m gay or not. Anyway, I was in an all-girls school too and I have quite a number of lesbo friends. Just wanna let you know that being lesbians in M’sia is not impossible as we can see more people coming out already! =D

Mocseeker
Hey girl,
love to chat wit u too. But im kinda too young to talk abt marriage. It doesnt mean we cant chat rit? Here is my msn add beverly0002009@hotmail.com
aiyoyo
sis im glad ppl r opening up.

Mocseeker
Hey girl,
love to chat wit u too. But im kinda too young to talk abt marriage. It doesnt mean we cant chat rit?
aiyoyo
sis im glad ppl r opening up.

hi bev,

Just wanna say that I;ve been thru the same thing as you b4 and I know its going to be difficult. But just hang on, I m sure one day u will find someone else which will return ur love.

I would really suggest you not to try anything with this girl currently, as you said she is straight, maybe some how she might change her mind on her feeling towards you, but then it will still be very difficult as I am sure she will spend most of her time worrying about what others think of her then.

It’s brave of you to be strong enough to stand out even at such young age.
=)

i agree with you G.. really true~ in the end u’ll just end up hurting ur self more and more… just be patient for now…

Homosexuality exists in every one, it can be subdued, managed, dispelled, nurtured, triggered or developed consciously or unconsciously, voluntarily or involuntarily… Those are options and it all boils down to our individual choices, as of today, three types of homosexuality have been identified; the natural ones, the nurtured homosexuals and the ‘flipped’ homosexuals…well, most of them became bi of their own volition to escape the question and settle for something complacent…your nurtured homosexuality is not to be judged but the culture of most homosexuals, as we can see, is kinda unwholesome…always subjected to imperishable lust, jealousy, belligerence and all…bev, life isnt just about romance and sex, you might as well convince yourself that this is a phase but you will always go back for more. So if it is cessation you are looking for, try being a biromantic homosexual, then alter a little bit more into bisexuality, and finally, you can dispel your homosexuality and become a biromantic heterosexual again…it worked for me, now i am a ‘lustless’ panromantic asexual. Bev, as long as you are not pushing yourself towards exploring the enigmatic streaks of human sexuality, you will not be trapped, dont let this bother you, it’s tying you down and you will be tormented after every wonder you cast:) anyway, it wouldnt be a big part of you when you grow older as we have more important things to focus on in life…so, try telling yourself that you can do better than this, you are definitely more than that, cut yourself loose from this forceful desire, because my friend, if this is not governed properly within you, it would lead to an unhealthy lifestyle; not because you dont want to quit your homosexuality but due to too much of sexual liberation i mean …and remember not to ignore it, just dont focus too much on it. plus, there is a lot of work to do to get over your exciting little crush…that’s because homosexuality offers 20% more pleasure than the ‘average’ heterosexual relationships? still, tell yourself mindfully, that you are better than that! or at least dont do anything stupid which you might regret later…i have had loads of them and it’s not cool at all. if you really cant repress it, make sure she is gay too before you take action, and approach her as graciously as possible…otherwise you’ll freak her out…

I met her 2years ago…we are still in relationship. I try to get rid of her coz she controlled me too much…help me guys.

I’m bi by the way, but i love women more. Now i’m in a serious relationship with a women and things pretty good btwn us. The problem is, i will not going out the closet, not in this country, and my parents keep asking me when i’m going to married my “boyfriend”.

Baverly, you’ll find the right one soon, u akan suka org lain lepas ni. the straight girl can give problem kalau diorang tak open tentang LGBT issue. my ex bestfriend told her parent when i coming out about my sexuality, dengan niat baik utk slmtkan i, but things turn out bad.

Fairybabe, talking from 5 years experience with my previous gf, i think u should left ur partner before thing gets out of controlled. If she already naik tangan, or pernah tampar u, it’s a bad sign. But, my advice here, don’t get in new relationship dalam masa terdekat after the break up or you’ll regret it and end up back to your ‘over possesive-controlled’ gf.

Went through this situation before. I’m 16 too mate. It’s hard, but you will go through it. Trust me, you will. Open your heart up and look around, you’ll find that she wont be the only one that capture your heart. Hang out with your friends and talk to someone that you really feel comfortable with. Friends are really important when you’re having a love issue. Know more people, make more friends. When things it’s over and you look back, you’ll realize that it ain’t hard. You just need time girl. You cant rush things, everything will be fine and you’ll find someone that deserve your love eventually. Wish you luck.(:

I’m a Malaysian too anyway,(;

Beverly, it’s understandable by just looking at your situation. I’m sure most of the lesbians have encountered this kind of situation but please do not give up. Just because you aren’t sure of the situation, that doesn’t mean it’s not going to happen. If you like that person, be honest and tell her about it. It’s not gonna hurt her, if she leaves because of this, she doesn’t worth your time at all. Btw add me up on msn if you need a talk. I’m from Malaysia too linkinrulez_jojo@hotmail.com

okay so im from malaysia too,18 now.and though im not quite sure im a bi or a lesbian,but i like girls.yes it is difficult to come out in malaysia as our country is very conservative and all those norms oh crap!
so im in the same situation as you,i was liked depressed for 4 years?i just cant bear the thoughts of looking at my classmate which is also my best friend everyday and act normal and straight.i tried pushing her away.(if you did that to your friend Q ,STOP IT!)
erm so as for me,i make myself occupied,being active and trying to know more people..the world is bigger than you thought it is.because sometimes we might tend to limit ourselves when we know we are not the same as others.
besides,you yourself must accept who you are and maybe you are just bi curious?give yourself some time to figure it out.
if can,try to coming out to your best friend or family(only those who really cares for you and are not homophobic!) so that you can feel less burden.it helps for me.
then,try spending quality time with other friends as well,i mean when you like someone you might not realise you have been neglecting other friends.
never get affected by what people says about being homosexuals are forbidden or disgusting or against the nature.because its we who live our lives not others,homo is natural and not us who chooses to walk this path,do not make yourself regret.good luck!

Anyone knows of any lesbian clubs around KL?

ayoo.. I’m lesbian too..

Hi Beverly, how r things with you right now? In my opinion, you should keep yourself bz and do well in your exams. You must be strong and not let your heart overule your head. Yes easier said than done.
By the way, I am Malaysian and a lesbian. You are not alone Beverly, stay strong.

Hye Bev..I’m from Malaysia n a lesbian…i guess u still have time to figure out whether u’re gay or not cos u’re still young..give urself some time ok…n u’re a not alone..trust me..:) it’s hard to be us especially if u’re Malaysian n Muslim..I’ve been fighting this feeling but I just can’t…sometimes i feel like want to confess to my family that I’m gay…*i wish i could* but then i guess, it’s better for me to just stay in d closet..arggghh!!

hi guys, I am lesbian and I need friend from this community coz sometime people outhere do not know my feeling and who I am, being Malaysian and lesbian is just too hard for me, I really need some friend

yeah.Hi.

Hi, I’m a malaysian too. I haven’t came out to my family yet. And I don’t think I would because I don’t think they can accept it. I had a girlfriend once. But we broke up because she doesn’t want to be a lesbian anymore.

Bev, are you a Malay? Does your crush has a boyfriend? I know it’s hard to have feelings to our own friend, especially close ones, because we don’t want to ruin the friendship right? If she’s straight, I suggest you to keep your thoughts for yourself. Because a rejection might cause you lose your friend. You can distract yourself by finding new friends who also have same sexual orientation like you, at least as a friend you can talk with about your feeling.

Anyway, I would love to know some people from this community so that I won’t feel alone being a lesbian.

Hi!

Hi ggirl, I am Malaysian too. and yes I do agree with you that being a lesbian here in malaysia is not an easy thing.
The stares that you get and the cold comments some people might give you.

Anyway don’t be too harsh on yourself. Its not your fault for your prefrence of the other sex.
I’d be pleased to be your fren.

Hey, I just recently…uhh..accepted that I, am a lesbian.. yeay . Like you Beverly I fell for my classmate..I still am head over heels for her. like in your case also,.. she’s straight as an arrow. But I never stop loving her. It’s been 6 years and still just thinking about her can make me smile…and sometimes when I’m depressed, cry. So what I’m trying to say here is, I know how u feel. Fortunately and unfortunately, she’s my best friend. So upside, I can hug her all I want and say I love you a gajilion times. Downside, at the end of the day, I’m still just her best friend. But I am never going to tell her. I would rather just keep this to myself then risk losing her. I know, this does not help (Im SO VERY sorry) but, I’m hoping for the both of us we can move on and hopefully find someone who can love us back All the best to u

btw, I’m also another fellow Malaysian

Oh never thought so many Malaysian here.

So true:) who would have known

hey~ i just found this thing here. do you guys have any fb groups or place so we can share stuffs like this? i would love to get to know more PLU.

girls do add me up so we can have a chat on this…to those who want to be friends feel free to add me also.

shermain429@yahoo.com

6 years benibenny? move on. It’ll only hurt you more. find someone that’ll actually love you back..

Hi all. I’m Malaysian and confirmed being bi not too long ago. Some of the advice here are great. Be true to yourself and never settle for someone you don’t love just because it is “normal” here. I understand how it is like to be different in this country. I am looking for similar fellow Malaysians to be friends.

lmy>easier said then done girl..baby steps. Plus i’m in the straightest place on earth. So… hey add me up on YM? benibenny@rocketmail.com. It’ll be cool to have someone to chat with

@benibenny hey added u already. Now you can tell me about ur 6 years of torture. Damn ur loyal

wow! looks like Msia got so many lesbians in the closet. same thing with me. we should create a page for our community.

almost 2years being single to mingle since broke up
after 5 years relationship.silly me.yey.

so many Malaysian here.proud to be Malaysina.eceh

love is the equatn that i’l nevr undrstand and being a lesbian the adventure so fun yet so confusing

IF you truly IN LOVE WITH them,
you love them as a person not based on gender.
after all Love Has No Boundaries.
and that isn’t a sin, is it ?
true love only come along once in a lifetime..
The solution for this matter are ,
if you DO Fall in Love with her ~ love her so bad that you will cry on night, you always want to be by her side no matter where she were,
IF YOU do think like that.
o.m.g …for god sake, confess to her,
so what if she are straight ? how sure u are that she doesn’t love you back? or perhaps you are a mind reader?
*the point is* when you really can do that, you will feel relief even though you got rejected ….the good thing is, you will finally can move on.
remember, true love is caring about the happiness of another person without any thought for what we might get for ourselves.
Be who you are, not as as someone else thinks you should be. Do not take action or pretend to be someone else for the sake of gaining acceptance, if you can do that i’m sure u will find a soul mate in future. you only live once after all. i’m sure u dont want to have any regrets right?
Though it is true that *easy say than be done.”
Best of luck.

Hi all,

i’m Les and currently having a lovely GF. she had a BF before which broke up before we became best friend.

our closed friends knows that we’re together and everyone suported us.

however, we came from conservative family and it’s difficult to get our family member agree on our relationship.

just wonder, when can we get support from our family especilly parents…

Hey guys its has been few months since i last visited. Thing r the same wit but tryin to not think abt it. Thanks for comments. Take care everyone:)

i need a girl who love me and accept me who i am i am lesbian

Hi all,
Coming from my experiences…its not easy though,depends on how you all take it whether on coming out or not.
I am in my big four now and i can say that it is not our desire to be a freak in our society. the most important thing in life is GO AHEAD WITH YOUR OWN INTUITION BEFORE YOU REGRET FOR LIFE!!!!
Yes it is real heartache to see no one really voices out thier opinion about homosexuality in public especially in msia.

Being a lesbian in msia was never easy especially if you are coming from a conservative family where everyone thinks that yin = yang but not yin = yin and yang= yang!!!

ohoo..i like this page already.. its like a little community of me..i mean people like me..its like having friend who actually can accept me and talk bout someone we love. nice… btw beverly just hang in there the road is pretty long u know~ love is somekind of ache that we addicted to..hahaha and i’m one of them.

and JD i am soooo agreed wit u~~ its hard in m’sia. and its not like we plan to fall in love with someone; girl/boy it just happen right~ haisshhhh

Hey girls,

I’ve been in this situation too. Actually, I still am in it. It’s been 8 years now.. I’m 23 and I still feel the same way about her. She’s my best friend, and the cause of my misery you ask? She’s straight. She has boy problems, and I’m her closest friend, so she talks to me about everything. Especially when it gets to the parts where she tells me about her ‘boy problems’.. It’s a constant reminder everyday that I’ll never be able to be with her. My sisters know about my sexuality as to the rest of the world, I’m still in the closet. I tried telling her that I loved her more ‘than a friend’, but she didn’t respond to it. We never brought it up again but she still ran to me with all her problems. She’s always had a boyfriend. It’s hard trying to move on, especially in our country, where homosexuality is frowned upon.

I’m looking for some friends, so that I can get my mind off of her and focus on developing into a more sensible human, beyond labels like ‘gay , lesbian , transexual ‘ etc.

Any Malaysian girls still here? Maybe some time soon we could reach out to each other for a cup of chocolate? Or a hug and talk about things??

Life’s hard being us and having to suppress one of the greatest feelings ever, Love.

I wish all of you happiness and acceptance.

My email: jane.doe.malaysia@gmail.com

all the comments above are very encouraging.. but my case is a bit different because i am a black bi girl in malaysia and it has been impossible to meet a bi or lesbian girl..

One thing i have to say to you is, heaven is real and hell fire is also real. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT CHOICES. Put God first in anything you do in life.

Hi bev.. n all… im a malaysian btw. and most of all.. im malay… im not from an all gals school.. but.. Im always kinda boyish… my first love is a straight gal.. n u knw.. I’ve been in ur situation bev for idk… longggg..cz its unrequited. its hard to forget but its also hard to admit.. to love… to have her… yet..even after i changed school.. i still cant forget her… at last.. before changing school i confessed my feelings… luckily.. she says ok. but we’re jz fwens.. sometimes u cant hv everytg u want.. If u’re lucky she will like u back.. but it nvr hurt to try before or afta u finish ur school.. afta all its an all gals school.. but THINK THE CONSEQUENCES… u’r young.. life is much more beautiful ahead of u… one dayy.. maybe.. someone else will be there for u… and now… Im wif a gf for 5years.. I wish u guys d best.. n for those wanna fwens wif me… hit me back.. Im up for talkssss guysss <3

Whoa,I never expected there’s so many gay girls in Malaysia.the closet must be like “tuna in a can”.

anyway,im gay too and i was born in Malaysia.I completely understand your situation.just hang in there.I know it’s very difficult.im still in closet too.it is really suffocating.

my advice for you is to take it step by step.first of all,you have to be totally accepting with yourself being gay.

are you sure the girl you have a crush on is totally straight?i heard from a research that a lot of girls are bisexual,only a few are straight and a few are gay.but even if she’s bisexual or gay,it is unlikely she will admit it in such a homophobic community.anyway,i hope you won’t have too much crush on her,or too obsessively in love with her.you have to realize the possibility that you are never going to end up with her and you are going to be hurt.so,please don’t put too much hope in her.open up to other options.there are so many “fish in the sea”.and you are still young so you better focus on your future first.all the best to you.xx.

Hello everyone. Erm its tough but im havin exams and stuff so kinda not concentrating abt her. But we r kinda gettin close till she even told about her bf. So i think its not right for me to disturb her. Btw u guys dont worry abt me im doing alrit. Tc and hav nice day

hey, i’m from malaysia too. i’m a lesbian since form4 and now i’m 20. i’m in love with a 26 years old girl. to me age is doesn’t matter. i love her so much but now, she wants to leave me. because of her EX. i cant accept it. i love her so much. i wanna find a new lesbian who can love me. i live in KL.

Hi sarah……..dun getinto another relationship to let of the pastone…….u will regret it…….i am also in kl……dun mind being frens thou…..

Hey sarah… i agree wif G.. When u’re in a relationship jz to forget your ex.. it doesnt last long… n.. btw, you may hurt the new person.. If its for fwens… well im up 4it… i oso need to hv fwens who is in d same boat.. hahahah..

let be friends

That’s great.. wan emel or kakaotalk or wussap? hahah

Damn..its hard tho..ive tried my best to b straight..but,i always find myself to fall for girls so easily than guys,..im bi…but,more to girllsss..damn,life is hard to handle,..how can i face it..wif the society..n huge guilt feeelin that im bringing wif me….i know im makin the wrong choice..but im makin it anyway,…immma badass furrreal..i am aware..like hell tht girl+girl is a big SIN thing..damn..it..suffocatin. wanna die .

Dont worry everythings gonna be fine. I was in the same situation but i just let go. If u need sumone talk im here

I understd ur situation @nadea … its tiring.. suffocatin..i always try hard to be straight.. i tot every girls shud like guys only cz dats how we are raised to be.. but… i always end up with falling for a girl… its not like we want this… the NEEDS to fulfill society hopes.. parents… some friends.. is kinda burden… its hard to live this way. i also understd dat we’re may makin wrong choice to the religion. parentss.. and etc. The guilt.. its HEAVY! but… when u’re in luv.. it seems like it is right choice. when u’re wif someone.. u feel that u’re in the right place… its really hard….

hey …thx guys…haha,i dun know who to talk to ..and end up being heaa,sooo beee it..btw,im malaysian too..lyk a truly one!lmao

Let’s be friends. Add me on skype andie.polie

i’m malaysian and i’m lesbian. anyone single? haha

Hey all. Found this while browsing for lesbian community online. I’m Malaysian as well. I agreed with most of the comments. It is really hard to live in a community that consider lesbian as taboo. Only recently have I accepted the fact that I’m a bi, but more inclined towards the females. It’s really hard to deal with this alone when everybody else expect you to be normal. I wanna find people to talk to/be friend with to share my views/problems with. Hit me up at cluelessles@gmail.com

Being a lesbian/gay/bi is not a choice.. it’s who you are and fo some people it may take some time for em to realize. Being a Malaysian does not make it impossible to be gay, it’s just a struggle. I came out of the closet when i was almost 19 & now im 23, gay, proud & out. Im opening a clothing line soon and it will be focusing on gay community especially & for charity. So if any of you guys would like to be a part of it feel free to talk to me at aira8915@gmail.com, to find out mo. I could use some ideas & opinions.
Cheerio.

i have the same situations as u are..and it’s really hard 2 live with this kind of feeling..as u may know..i’ve been falling in love with one of my bestfriend to..and the weird things is i think she feels the same 4 me..but i’m glad it didnt happen to be serious..cuz i didnt want 2 turn my friend into someone else..and i bet u know what..to be honest..i never ever like guys before..and my family doesnt even know about this..that’s why i ended up be in here..to find someone who on the same thing as i am..PEACE!! I’M MALAYSIAN btw..

im in love with my best friend as well, not to mention that she’s damn straight. i could only joke abt my feelings towards her, but it’s alright i guess. since i’m not interested in any one else right now so i will just love her all the way until the day that i will not anymore.

no matter how is it, just keep yourself cool and happy alright! at least make her your bestfriend that you will never lose under any circumstances.

by d way i’m always up for knowing new friends.. cheers
alice_ssy@hotmail.com

I’m Les and from Malaysia too! Happy to found, at least i feel that i’m alone. >.<
The comments all are so touch which make me feel better. =)
Happy to know all of u! Let's be friend if you all don't mind ^^
Anyway, i'm from Penang.

Another fellow lesbian..add me at budak_malas18@yahoo.com

I’m a Malaysian tomboyish lesbian and still waiting for a sweet and nice girl to love. Of course I’m single cuz nvr dated Hmu on kakao girls! ID: JuzSimple

Hey.. Jz search adek89 at kakaotalk guyz

Hi all, m a lesbian and now living in cyberjaya. M a malay girl and just came out few years ago. Trust me it is not easy and things are getting tougher each day. And to those who wanna share thier stories, you are more than welcome to email me at amunu
amynurrashid@yahoo.com. M an open book, so ask me anything. And to those ladies know what to know me better, you know what to do…wink!

my bf passed away last year and since that i’ve no interest towards man. idk whether i’m turning into lesbian or bisexual, but..urghh..idk what kind of feeling is this. -__-

Oh wow. Haha, I think all these years I am aware of this, but I never really…um actually thought that there are a lot like me in this country. I used to have couple bad experiences in the past because of my sexual orientation. Sigh. I always live a double life ever since. I wish I can tell people, but maybe it is best for me to just keep it to my self. My family will disown me if they know this. Anyway I am happy with my current life. I have been together with my bestfriend/gf and confessed to her that I like her 4 years ago. I am 25 and I am Bi but more into girls. BTW, she is or was a super straight girl. XD

hey people, support this twitter account specially made for people like us https://twitter.com/TwatterBoudoir im trying to get awesome gay people like us from malaysia to get together and talk just bout anything.

It’s a protected account so im strictly approving only lesbians so don’t you worry bout that. All followers will be followed back as well! Peace!

Hey guys,could anyone hlp me?I’m totally lost wth my lfe coz I can’t frgt my girl.even we break up,I stll fl tht I’m losng her,we’re dtng for 3yrs,I dun knw hw we cn fll in love.is juz lke arrw shot to my heart.1st of all I am strght grl n she strght too but I dun knw suddenly we love n like each othr.I love her so much.now I’m lost her bcoz she was terrfied and she wnt to be a strght.I was rlly upset bcoz she’s prt of me.suddenly her heart changed.help me!!:(

I’m from malaysia too, but currently studying overseas.
I do wanna make more lesbian friends in Malaysia before I go back to Malaysia for good. so hit me up at
hijklmnopleasestopthat@gmail.com
have a very nice day everyone

Hie Bev,

Go for it. Dont waste time. If she accepts move on with her, orelse give her time, and you move on with yourself.
Dont think too much. Just do it. Let her know your feelings and balance it. No harm. Better to say it out than to suffer internally.Ypu must say things out. Dont keep it in you.

All the best.

To my respective les ppl out there, pls feel free to add me. Would like to have networkings. I am les. Residing in Malaysia.

ymegodd@yahoo.com

^w^ I wonder if Bev still around…she must’ve been busy with the exams and everything. There’s nothing wrong by falling in love with someone. I think it’s beautiful especially when it comes to girls X girls. I wish you all the best Bev in whatever you do. Make sure you happy. Always.

Anyway, to anyone out there, let’s be friend. Currently living in KL. So hoping to meet new friends.

chieharuka@gmail.com

Hey guess what I’m lesbian from KL too! I’m in really desperate need of GF now

Hi moon, why don’t you kakao me Id: JuzSimple

hai add me here akugadisss@yahoo.com

hye bev, your age remind me when i start realized that i only attracted to girl than men
awww…. time fly fast
chayok to u:)

Its good to know there r lotsa lesbians in Malaysia..
anyone wanna be frens email me@ evan_592002@yahoo.com

I had a girlfriend before. i love her so much, sometimes i felt like already given her part of my world, but now, she had a breakdown and sudden change.im trying my best to forget her!:(

Everytime i tried to pujuk, she just kept silence and all her answer is im busy! TO A ~ do you already forgotten about me? am i that easy to forget after 2 years and half we get together? do you realize i already given everything, even i cry everynite because of you!sometimes i hate you, and the same time i think i love you. i cant bare to think i dont miss you cause i am. i know we were not meant to be together. if you know its going to end, why did you start it. my heart is frozen now because you break it. im so stupid to fall in love with you.

wow..min,that’s just painful to read.
i feel bad for you…but, you hang in there.time heals everything. statistic shows that the time you need to forget someone is equal to the time that you were in a relationship with them. so, i wish you luck.

“statistic shows that the time you need to forget someone is equal to the time that you were in a relationship with them”

Really? wow…what if it takes years?

well..the easier way for me, I think…probably when you meet someone else?

To Sophiedunn ~ I’m trying . thanks for the support i really need it. She want to be with men, so let be it. I just wish her all the best of me.
To Justme ~ I’ve tried, with men, i think it didnt workout for me. I think i just need sometimes. 2 and half years probably. I just focus on my work now.

Hi girls

Didnt know there’s such a large group here. I’m a bi, realized it for so long.. tried to deny it but just cant. Started way back when was 13, I fell for my senior in highschool. We became bestfriends but she never realized that I had those special feelings towards her. She’s straight. After she left highschool I felt so lost but eventually managed without her n busied myself trying to have a crush on the boys. It never felt the same n I eventually realized that I have more interest in girls. I am married with a kid now but I still think about having a special girl in my life.. I know its really wrong but I cant help it. Can anyone help me? I would really appreciate if I have someone to talk about this openly. Its so stressful keeping this to myself..

Hi, Just trying to get more friends. I am not looking for sex partners & etc. So if you think that it may not hurt by having another friend mail me e7148@yahoo.com

Min..a guy? seriously…it won’t work that way..u know it well right? But yeah…probably the best for now is just focus on your job. Make yourself busy. I wish you all the best Min. We will never forget someone that easy…but…we can get rid the feelings that we have for that someone…and one day, when you look back at her, you won’t feel anything anymore.
Happens. All the time. Though it’s hard…overtime its getting much easier. It just rejection still hurt…having emotions can be a bliss can be a curse. Depends on how you view it. Choose good. Choose love okay.

To Justme – Thanks yeah, really appreciate it. im back from ipoh today, i decide to see her yesterday and i did! as usual not seeeing each other for a long time make she say ‘i miss you’, and huggies. but sometimes when i look into her eyes, theres deep down i think she still love me but can’t react on it. so i drive her home from work, and it was late at night, my mom ask me so stay at her house. and i stayed. so, she ask me to chnged my cloth to her cloths * im stinky for 8 hours wearing the same shirt. then yeah, i changed my cloth in front of her, but she couldnt bare to see me. supposed she have seen all of me! and the most heart breakin is, when i heard shes talking ‘bergayut’ with someone else.then i realised : yeah, she already have someone else, even everytime i asked, she denied it. huhu!

To zz – umm…You know, in my opinion it’s nothing wrong with it. Like you want to have someone..that special girl in your life.You can like more than one person. It’s normal. It can happen to anyone. Well, to some it might seems wrong. Depends on how how people want to see it. Okay, ask yourself, if..IF you meet that special girl and then let say that you fall in love with her, imagine how your life gonna be next?

To Min – So…umm…why is it I feel like you are still hoping that you could change her mind? though it would be selfish for me to say anything when I don’t get the whole story. You know, this kind of situation…I’m not saying that I’m pro at this. No. But for me, you have to move on. The easiest way is when you meet someone else or when you find your passion on work or just anything a hobby perhaps, books, something that can divert your attention from thinking too much about her? Well…to be honest I myself still thinking of that someone. Can’t really forget her but it’s not hurting anymore. I learn to accept that everyone change…everything. Nothing permanent. If she loves me less, if she care less of me…or not care at all…it is still okay. I can do that too…alter the feelings. Doesn’t mean I’ll forget her…You know like when you have this sort of I-am-grateful-yet-I-wish-I-never-met-you feeling…when you first realize that she didn’t love you like how you love her. Well, at least I’ll remember this…I know she felt something with me even for just a moment.

to JustMe ~ probably i am, eventhough i know its wrong. i think, you make me realize now shes gone. i just have to make myself admitted it right? maybe its hard on the first, even i tried my best to distract myself, shes my first love*. but deep down, Im sure i can, .thanks again!

Found this forum. Hope I’ll get some words inreturn.

Attracted to a girl during schooling days, and confessed to her. She liked me too. She was doing so well in her studies back then, i upgraded myself with academic qualification and was in due settling myself with likable profession in society. Though i was and i am very much away from society norms due to my introvert nature, it was duly for her that i worked hard. We were in touch for several years, and she got herself busy with higher studies and i was waiting patiently for that special moment to meet her. After 9years, I contacted her eventually for my first ever date. I broke into pieces when got to know that she has been engaged and married to a man. I got myself into alcohol and cigar approximately 5-6months so, went imbalanced, broked and locked myself in the room. I managed to get away from that habits, but I couldnt focus into anything anymore. Dead feeling. It has been a year and I couldnt revive from this. Im not sure what happened to me. Im not doing anything. Its so heavy. I am not talking to anybody verbally. I couldnt. I need to get back myself. Ive been killed literally…….

To JJ ~ me too i know that feeling!

Min..

Thank you for replying. How to get out from this? How to divert this mind? Im not the same anymore.
Its painful. Very much…

Dear young lesbians,
I know the feeling of despair and helplessness not to mention loneliness that comes with being different and with no one to confide in.

In malaysia, the problem is compounded by religious restrictions and a unforgiving society.

We do have secret clubs and groups in malaysia that helps gay people cope with their life. I too assist at a group for young lesbians and members in this group are fortunate to have a kind and understand master who guides and assists girls with problems with their families etc.

I can be contacted via my email : juliewongsuetlei@gmail.com or look me up of facebook using the same email.

Take care for now

TO JJ ~ WE have to be strong, i admit sometimes i am feeling okey, sometimes dont, the feeling just came back strongly. I guess maybe we just need times. no need for revenged, we just make our mind and body to be presentable. ready for everything. i think sooner or later youll be fine. okey babe? Me and my ex, we still seeing each other as ‘siblings’. i guess my yesterday is worsed, but today im fine. *admit that I HAVE TO STOP SEEING HER*, in fact after breakups, i realise NO overly spending my money for her, time for her. i have all it by myself :]. btw, take care of yourself, dont make something like that make you heads over heels. i suggest ~ Jogging, really helps! gudluck :*

Thank you Min.

ah u welcome Min. Helping you is helping myself too. You were right, some days are okay some just don’t. I try gym. At least I’m okay now. I’m no longer having those unnecessary feelings. Though sometimes I stupidly still hoping that at least she will remember me.

Min is right JJ. Haha, maybe we should hang out together you know.

Anyway, I got into a problem recently. Made me come out to my boss and his wife. What a funny and odd situation. I always got into this kind of problem. Guys don’t have any clue at all about me. I look so very normal girl appearance wise. I don’t know what is it with me, but it seems that guy easily fallen for me and I had to face their girlfriends, fiancee or wife. Surprisingly they just okay when I told them I don’t like guys. Probably they were more upset about their guy. Things are awkward. The guy can’t accept that a girl like me would be like this. Is it wrong liking girls?

to just me : yeah, i think we should hangout sometimes. you know, sometimes we need time to chnge. Its not like we ‘the one’ that want to be like this. Its just the feeling. right? Today, i confess to her again,lastly this is the last day for us to contct each other. I feel really freeeeee now.

Me and her declred for not to contct or to see each other ever again, i hopes this time it works for me. Not to pscyhotic over her. Haha. Saya rs dah boleh lupakn dy. Sy cuma berharap dy bhgia disamping bf dy. Me?i dont know what happen next. Falling in love with someonelse maybe? Or maybe not. Stay single is better. Bye A!

I’m glad to hear it Min. It takes time but its goin to work out well. This is not the end, this is just the beginning right?

Yeah, lets meet up. but wait wait. Do you need to fly over here? Cuz I’m pretty far. Haha. kidding. I’m probably lives next to u. Hahaha.

To just me – haha! Well, if your are near to me. Then why not, we can be friends.I can be the one who approach you, u know? Hee. I’m pretty bored, staying alone..at least knowing someone , makes a differnt. Except if you already have a gf, so xmahu lah mengganggu hubungan awak.peace!

Lol. So, where r u exactly? Hoho, I see. The one who initiate the move type. Lets be friend Min.

I am thee I will +type. Haha. Kidding! Yeah. Let’s be friends. I’m staying in muar. You?

muar? I’m KL. How to get in touch with you?

hi im a malaysian too. I was with a girl previously. we were together since 2008. We were both straight-acting girls. She has got her own family and business committments where we hardly spend time together. We were good till 3yrs back, she couldnt bare such relationship as she cant come out to her parents and friends. So she distance herself from me. Being so cold towards me…I suffered and cried every day and night… I did tried to let go…it took me 2years to actually “feel less painful” but yet still couldnt let go. Long story on those suffocated years. I tried to compromised and see things from her perspectives which made me even harder to let go cause i can never hate her no matter how cruel she is. But all those hurts really deter me and my feelings towards her. It took years afterall. We seldom or rather rarely contact each other anymore.

Recently a friend of mine reminded me to get to know more people like me. So im here today =) Hope to gain some friends who i can talk with. It doesnt matter if you are a butch,andro or femme. Im an andro by the way =) but not too boyish either. Add me or email me at crabbymin_8008@hotmail.com

To just me- add my bbm 225fabbb.

min…unfortunately I don’t have bbm. Is there any way to reach you?

hye,
Im malaysian and muslim, recently found out that im lesbian. Nobody knows, it all in my head because i cant talk and tell anybody about it. My mom would get an heartattack if she knows. It been depressing. Im trying to keep busy. SO help from someone who like to be my friend, a partner, a penpal. Emergency 911. addii22@yahoo.com

~STay STrong~

hey guys..i am so confuse..i keep telling myself that i am straight but now i think i am bi…i always feel an attraction towards girls..i cant confess bcoz most of the girls are straight..

Life is tough. And its gettin tougher each day i live. I always ask.. why me god? If i am meant to burn in hell .. why am i so in love with women? Why u create me? I even thought of marrying. But how will i dispose this feeling? I thought maybe my mom can be happy for i live like a normal human being… but everyday… its killin me. Im 24 and each day my friends gettin married. And each day my mom talk the same thing… about marriage. Its tiring… im sorry. I cant tell any one. At least here i knw someone might read it.

To sherry~ sometimes.. its just a phase for some ppl. But when u start having doubts bout ur preference.. its cz u deny the truth. Jz think. What are u? Can u even imagine being with a girl? I seriously cant imagine im with a guy. Even with imagination… its killing me by suffocationssss!!! So think!

hye..im malaysian, i hope that i can find some friends here..i feel so alone, i need someone to talk to..im 27, im working and studying at the same time..

my email: xsukasushi@gmail.com

Thanks, =)