sex with my straight bestie

Okay…so I think EVERYONE has seen/heard this question/story I appoligise for my spelling and gramer, I have dyslexia.. so its kinda hard

I’m in love with my bff!!

But i think my story… is a litte bit diffrent

I am looking for some help and advice…

so it all started last year, my first year of high-school… that already tough enough… coming from being bullied my whole life, having loads of mental dissabilatys and being abused by my parents…I had no one…

Now heres the thing, i had JUST started comeing out as being bi….oi

In my social class… there was this girl…. HOLY CHOCOLATE COOKIES!!! She is so incredibly hot!!!!! Brown silky hair..beautful green eyes…tall…cute smile…natural blush

Me and this hottie became bffs, we talked and texted ALL THE TIME.. I of course loved her and cared about her so much it hurt, i did EVRYTHING for her. She was the greatest friend i could ever ask for!!! we talked about everything!! we had so much in commen, she always made me laugh and she had the greatest hugs ever!!!!

I was so comleatley in love with her

I told her I was bi.. and i was in love with her..she was totaly cool with it and suportive

after that we became so close!! we are always witch eatchother, she isent a very touch and feel kinda person, not much of a cuddaler, but with me it was diffrent

we both get stressed easly, and we have had our fights, but we alwasy make up

at school she acts way difrent, no pda and cuddling between us, even though i try, im a very cuddaly person

when we are alone we rub eatchothers backs and arms and cuddle

she tells me all the time that she loves me, i do the same..

now the thing is she is “straight”

in the summer…she kissed me… as a “test” she kissed me meny times after that..it was amazing.. i could feel the sparks fly

but…she said.. she dident want to kiss me anymore…sence she was defanatley “straight”  she hassent ever sence

i was hurt…but we are still friends… i love her too much to leave her

now heres where things get….interesting

a little while later…maybe 2-3 months later when we started grade 11, we had a sleep over…

we were in the same bed…. I layed my arm over her side to cuddle with her… she looked at me and smiled…then.. she moved closer…..lets just say… things led to things…we ended up fooling around..not kissing.. just touching..and ALOT OF IT… she led me on and she baciley showed me what to do… she dident resipracte much… but i dident care

IT WAS AMAZING

this happend agian a few weeks later… onley much more heated…exept again…i did more the she, i could tell she loved it, and after that she said how amazing it was

agian.. i dident mind

she stil said she was straight..even after telling me how much she loved it and how she wanted more

and after admitting to my one of my friend that she tought i was kinda hot

of course im even more in love with her!!!!

time went on…nothing happend.. a few times we cuddled and i kissed her on the cheek a few times, and she did the same but not as often

she got a boyfriend…i was heart broken

but last weekend…i slept over at her house..i figured.. nothing was gonna happen, I mean.. shes straight..and well.. we havent done that in a long time..and she has a boyfriend

I WAS DEAD WRONG

there was no space between us!! she touched me and i did the same, things were heated..EXTREAMLEY heated, it was so comleatley amazing!!! agian.. i did all the work.. but stil..awsome.. we were so close, and she said how much fun it was and i could tell how greaty it made her feel and how much she absalutley loved it…but after… it was like we never did anything, and things went back to normal.

so my question is

is she straight or bi??..im so confused