This is the thing…
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I’m almost 18, I have had two boyfriends since I was 13. The first was on and off until I was mid-way between 16 and 17, it was a bad relationship, but my first, so I clung on. The second, my current boyfriend, I’ve been with since a few months after the first, so it’s been over a year. My boyfriend is lovely, he’s sweet and thoughtful and he’s cute. He treats me the way he should as well. And we love one another. He keeps me happy in every way, so I’m never even unsatisfied in bed nevermind in our relationship.
That part in particular leaves me stumped as to why I then continue to dream about girls. I dream all the time about girls, and in the dream I’m always fascinated by them, appreciating their beauty, their girly-ness. They give me a notion of forbidden fruit, something I feel I’ll never taste or touch.
Now these dreams have recurred ever since I was with my first boyfriend years ago. And as a little girl I’d get all excited about girls just as I would boys. I’ve always appreciated and almost relished in the thought of touching another girl’s body, just to run my hands over the curves and the smooth, soft skin.
Now don’t let that lead you to think that I don’t appreciate males. My boyfriend’s body is no female’s body, he’s rougher and hairier and he doesn’t have ‘curves’. Yet I still love it.
It strikes me that I’m just bi-sexual. But I have no method by which to tell. Is it important that I test this out in my life? Bearing in mind that I cannot see past this relationship into another or being single again. I know that I’m young but I don’t befriend people well, I certainly don’t trust others easily. And my honeybear and I are happy, really happy. So I don’t see any need to imagine life without him. Is there anything I can do that might help me get a certain feeling about this bi-sexuality thing?
Thanks. 
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Yup, it sounds like you’re bi. Congratulations! I don’t think it’s really that important for you to explore right now, if you’re content with your boy then I wouldn’t worry about it. I would say that if/when you break up, you might want to explore it a bit, just so you can be certain, but as long as you’re happy, I wouldn’t stress about it. From the timeframe you gave, I gather that you are maybe a senior in high school? Just know that college brings a lot of changes to everyone’s mentality, so your relationship with your bf will probably change (not necessarily in a bad or good way, but it will probably be different, even if you both go to the same school).
When I was dealing with something rather similar, I ended it with my bf because I realized that A) I really needed to figure myself out ASAP, for my own mental health and B) I really wasn’t attracted to him. For you it sounds like the second one really doesn’t apply, and you’re the only one who can figure out if you need to know for sure right now. However, if you feel like you need to experiment right now, I would say to be honest with your bf, tell him your confused and need to figure it out without feeling guilty. Take a break with him, don’t say, okay, we’ll have an open relationship (even if he says that’s okay). He might not understand that things you’re doing with a girl are just as “real” as if you were messing around with other guys (not sure if he would understand it or not). So I would say take a break, and when you’ve got it figured out then you can talk about it again. But that’s only if you feel you need to know who you are right now. If you’re pretty sure you’re bi and that’s good enough for you then don’t worry about it.
Good Luck!