Sexual Orientation?
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I’m 20 years old, and for the past couple of weeks I have really been questioning my sexual orientation.
I’ve always considered myself straight, but I have never really been attracted to men at all, I just thought that’s how it was.
I’ve always been attracted to women and thought that this was normal, in fact, I feel like everyone is attracted to them and that’s just how it is.
I’ve never have sex with a women, or been in a relationship with one. But I do remember all through high school and parts of college whenever me and some friends would get “too drunk” or play truth or dare, or spin the bottle, or whatever, I absolutely loved making out with girls and loved the excuse to get to do so.
I have been in relationship with guys, but I don’t think that I ever really enjoyed it. My most serious relationship lasted a year but we ended up breaking up because me and him were more like best friends than lovers.
I’m just really confused right now, I’m pregnant also, so could it just be hormones playing tricks on me?
I’m also thinking that because of the hormones from pregnancy, it is making me more aware of my sexual desires, which made me question in the first place, if I ever was really straight?
I just don’t know what to do, or what to think right now. Any ideas? Any advice?
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In my opinion you were always gay. It’s that simple. You thought you were straight because you never actually questioned yourslef about it, you just went with it, guys hit on you and you accepted some of them, girls don’t normally hit on you so you never considered the possibility, you thought guys were your thing because it’s what life has presented you; guys that are interested in you and not girls, but once you’ve realized you don’t feel any kind of passion for men, it’s time for your love life to start, now that you know, you can get up and do something about it. There are a los of girls who realize it too late, when they’re older, or already married to a man whom she thought was the love of her life, but was actually just her best male friend, not a lover.
Hi CherryDiamonds,
I just read your post. Everything that you’ve written sounds just like me! I was in the exact same situation as you (minus the pregnancy bit) and after a long and drawn out period of questioning my sexuality I finally became more comfortable with the fact that I am gay and started coming out to people last year (I’m 22). Now most people in my life know and nothing is much different from how it was before before although I no longer try to like guys (which i did for a long time)…
Obviously only you know who you are and who you are attracted to but my experiences are pretty similar so if you want to talk about anything you can email me. janary91@hotmail.co.uk
Emma x