What To Do? What To Think?
Hello everyone, this is the first time I have ever been on a site like this at all… so this should be new.
I’m 18 and just moved out of the parents’ house. Haha woop woop! I have been with my girl for 5 months and we have broken up around 5 times. 4 of them were from her wanting to leave me. And 1 from me. I’m pretty laid back and get along well with others. And I’m not the jealous type. You should know that before you read this blog.
So I am with a girl. She is so amazing and I love her to death… really I do. But I’m worried… she has this ex who lives 5 hours away from here and they were really close. But her ex ended it because of distance. So then she met me.
Well on our 3 month her ex called her telling her that she was in town and wanted to see her. But my girl said that she was busy at the moment but would try to see her later that night. (My girl knows that I can’t stand her ex and I would never want her to go see her. Just because when she is with her then she gets mixed feelings and doesn’t know who she wants to be with.)
So she left me all alone on our three month outside while someone came and got her to bring her to her ex. I was crushed. I really think I hated her at that point. I wanted nothing to do with her ever again.
Well that night she called me saying that she didn’t do anything (which I half believe) and told me that she still wanted to be with me. Well I told her that I couldn’t do that because it wasn’t fair to me to have my heart broken like that. So the next day she asked me to stop by because she wanted to talk in person. So I did and we ended up hugging and what not. And her dad saw us. (He knows she is gay and he knows that I’m gay but never knew we were together.) So he asked us what was going on and we told him and he was mad. (He’s not a very nice person and you feel like your walking on egg shells around him.) We had to tell him we were still together because we knew he wouldn’t believe us if he knew we had just broken up.
Well I moved out of my parents’ house… and the plan is for my girl to move in with me next month because she can’t stand living at the house with her dad anymore. And I really want her to move in but… there is something about it.
I feel like the only reason she wants to move in with me is because she needs a place to stay. And sometimes I feel like that’s the only reason why she is with me. It hurts to say that because I do really love her. (People call me crazy but I do.) I don’t know what to do. I tried talking about it with her to see if my feelings were true but she tells me no. of course she would… she wouldn’t admit to something like that.
I don’t know what to do and it’s driving me crazy!
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5 breakups in 5 months? Don’t let her move in. Your relationship is way too unstable for that, and you have to worry about practical things like bills and rent.
In my experience, if multiple people who genuinely care about you tell you that you’re crazy for loving her, you are.
“I feel like the only reason she wants to move in with me is because she needs a place to stay.”
That is the two crucial lines you need to take out of this post…Whatever your gut says is right. People will never tell you what they really think - I Feel it too and you deserve better.
Also I would have broken up with her that night… if she has to keep going back to her ex to re-confirm a decision to be with you, she’s confused and is not worth your time.
Wouldn’t you like a girlfriend who doesn’t have to make such decisions or puts you on a roller-coaster like that? You won’t get that with this girl…
I agree with the abve posts…don’t let her move in..I suggest being her friend and Ilif she really does have feelings for you , it will show even if you are friends…take it slow …and always go wth your gut feelng!!!! Trust me on this one…if you let her move in you will always b thinking that she’s there to for the wrong reasons and it will never work between you guys! So give it time!! Return the favor and read my post …