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How Can One Move On?

August 23rd, 2008

It was way too unlikely, I doubted a lot whether or not it was just a fantasy of mine for 2 years, then she says she loves me and gives me a kiss. Somehow, it’s late and I can’t get myself around to write a long story… She doesn’t remember a thing, I thought we had chemistry, but she was pissed when I confronted her with the last time we saw each other, so I assumed it’s over and I don’t need to post any of this because it’s all too familiar, we’re not on the same page, that’s all, whatever her feelings are…

They say she has selective memory about these things, some people hate her, some don’t, I wasn’t really idealizing her, I was just open to whatever… I felt in love with her, I don’t have a type, but she might not have seen it at all, maybe she just wanted to play like none of us could tell. I just assumed she was gay from the go, then evidence came across she was not… Well, sure no other woman complimented me as much on my looks or told me how beautiful she thought I was. She is too seductive they say, she does it for sport. Everything they predicted, family, career it was all going to weigh more than acting upon this, even if she saw it, which most likely she doesn’t. I hope it’s worth it. I’d understood, the hard part is her denial of it all. I wasn’t planning to hint my feelings, then she got sick and I got scared, but I guess, that’s when she acted strangely and said she loved me, and then forgot. How many woman has she kissed and forgotten? That question makes me laugh. Can painkillers make you gay? Not anymore than alcohol, wild guess….

Apparently she’s got a big family and lots of friends. That’s all alien to me. She had many things going against her, I didn’t care, and on the bright side I might have babies someday. This post sucks. I suck, my vacuum sucks.

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